Moving Furniture, Overcoming Vulnerability aka I Hurt My Ninja Kicker

by Leila on May 4, 2012

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I do everything on my own. I have little help (though I do have awesome friends that will help if I ever actually need/ask… but I don’t… but that is another topic) but I’m okay with that. I like that I am obnoxiously independent. It empowers me. I embrace it!

Even if it ends up costing me.

I have this problem with moving furniture on my own. In the last several years I have hurt myself from doing this… but I can’t stop it.

I get bored. I move things around.

Usually I just hurt my back because I think I’m like mother fucking She-Ra and can move heavy things without help. I always prove that I -can- move things and sometimes prove that my body is older than I’d like to admit. Sometimes. So, it’s totally worth it.

I was rearranging the playroom when an organizer broke apart unexpectedly on my freaking foot.

You know those three drawer plastic thingies? Well, loading them up with paper, books and chargers/random electronic parts isn’t a good idea… especially when you move the thing and it falls apart and hulk smashes your freaking foot. It is still in pieces where it fell. The only thing I cleaned up is the blood. Ugh.

Also… Kicking the thing with said smashed, bleeding foot while calling it a stupid whoreface anushair isn’t a good idea. My son has a more colorful vocabulary and it did make the pain worse.

I felt at the moment I needed to teach the organizer bitch a lesson. I’m very logical at times.

I admit it, I cried. Actually, at first I couldn’t feel anything! My whole body rushed with adrenaline and I felt nothing. I knew right away it was going to be bad when I went from entire body numbness to uncontrollable crying. I. Don’t. Cry. I couldn’t stand up, move my leg and could not control it. The gaping cut in it was so bad it took me awhile to get it to stop bleeding. I was trying to stay calm because it was just me and my son there and unfortunately, he started to freak out. That makes me feel horrible.

He was really sweet. He brought me every first aid kit, frozen bag of veggies and ice packs as well as every stuffed animal he could find so I had “friends to make me feel better” while I failed at my attempt to keep it together.

Besides when my home and car got broken into I don’t think I’ve felt that amount of vulnerability. I don’t like being vulnerable at all but this was a completely different level that scared me out. Admitting that makes me feel even more vulnerable. It is an endless cycle and one that I loathe. I have to recognize this though.

I was on the ground for about an hour before I actually called someone. During that time I had to really think about my options. I do not go to the doctor unless it is something serious and at the time it was seeming kind of serious. That opens a whole laundry list of other hurdles. I can’t drive with my foot like this. Who will watch the kids? How will I get there? How much will this cost? What happens after if it really is messed up? What about camping? How am I going to feed my kids? How much more am I going to screw this up because I lack the ability to just freaking chill?

And the big question that weighs on my mind…

What if this was worse and something horrible happened to me… what will happen to my kids?

That was a jolting moment of reality for me. That always weighs on my mind and isn’t a new thought. My kids rely on me 100% and by me being an obnoxious independent ass about things doesn’t do them any good. It all just sunk in heavier this time.

This can potentially screw up our summer plans but it could be worse. So many more worse things happen and have happened to the people in my world. In many ways I’m very lucky.

We have Japanese Festival dancing coming up. I can’t miss that. I wanted to take them camping this month. My daughter’s 500 Club celebration for Girl Scouts is next weekend. I’m now at a loss as to what to do for my son’s 5th birthday party. I have Big Sur and Bishop Fishing coming up before I know it! And BlogHer… ugh… the list goes on.

All of this because I was doing something I know I should ask help for.

But, I am too programmed to think that it would be a burden to bother anyone… even though I’d drop everything to help those I care about and never feel burdened by them.

I like to make everything into some kind of lesson that I can walk away a better person from it. Right now I can’t actually walk so I’ll hop away knowing that I have great people in my life that I can rely on when I need it. I can ask for help. I can choose not to ninja kick everything on my own because there are people out there that would do for me as I do for them. I only keep good damn people in my life. I need to learn to let them help so I don’t screw things up for my kids.

… and next time I decide to rearrange an entire room I will ask for help…

or just remove the drawers in things before moving heavy objects.

See… that IS progress.

About Leila DontSpeakWhinese

Leila, aka The Ninja, is the advocate for all things not whining. Parenting is fun when everyone stops b*tching! She is the Mom of a big blended family of four awesome kids. They ninja kick through life together. Oh and she is a total jackass.

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Sarah @ The Fence May 4, 2012 at 7:40 pm

Even ninjas move furniture in groups! :)
Hope the kicker feels better soon… and I’m thankful there’s a lesson in there, albeit a painful one.
MWAH!
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Leila May 9, 2012 at 6:53 pm

Thanks woman!!! Why don’t you live closer? We could be gaming and laughing and plotting to take over the world from my couch!

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DCWhatthe May 7, 2012 at 7:25 pm

Some lessons are more painful or costly, than others. But their value can make you grateful that you worked through the pain.

…or just remove the drawers in things before moving heavy objects….

That last point is just as important, I think. You don’t always have to swallow your pride and send out an SOS. You could always try using your noggin, first. Heck, in the long term we’ll have robotic helpers, or something that amounts to the same thing, maybe furniture that moves itself or self-cleaning walls. We gotta get used to the idea of more of our tasks being automated, so we can focus on the good stuff.

In the here and now, the way I see it, is that ANY decision we make, which balances our safety and productivity, is something we can be proud of, for lack of a better word.

So, if we decide to purchase one of those little slider thingies that you can put under a dresser to make it easier to move; or we decide that Fred has more experience with stereo equipment, so why not wait until after work to call him, and invite him for takeout; or we just do the things which we know can be performed solo, and figure out the rest tomorrow – then we are using our brain to decide the best resources available, to get what we want or need.

That kind of strength, in my opinion, is more important & flexible, than the power to lift up a mattress.

That being said, I have to admit, my wife has more of that kind of resourcefulness, than I do. But we all do the best we can.

Anyway, good post Leila. With luck, someone out there will learn this lesson, without having to go through the pain first.

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Alison April 19, 2013 at 2:10 pm

I have the furniture mining bug too. I got it from my Mom, I think i even store i wouldn’t be like her but I totally am. My husband just rolls his eyes and walks away. No help there.
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Damon April 19, 2013 at 8:04 pm

Reminds me of the first episode of 30 Rock where Liz Lemon almost chokes to death on a cashew all alone in her apartment ;-)

Do you reside in California? I think I forgot.
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