Writing has always been my outlet…
Business and marketing has always been a passion…
Helping others and making people laugh is what is my driving force.
Being able to combine all of this this year has been a dream come true. Truly. An absolute dream and one that I am thankful for.
When 2011 started I was in a very different place emotionally, mentally and not sure of where I wanted to go with my career. It was a pretty dark time for me.
Several years of things going to crap was taking its toll… and that was really frustrating because I could always make things happen.
I was also dealing with one of the hardest times as a parent of a special needs child who has life threatening health issues. My daughters health was not in good shape, she was diagnosed with a rare autoimmune disease and her team was ruling out a lot of very scary things because there were (and still are) so many things that we can’t figure out.
I’m in the position where working outside of the home as a single Mom is a difficult task since my daughter can be laid up in bed for days or weeks at a time. I have to make things happen on my own so I can be available to her.
I was feeling very alone. I’ve been happily and very independently single for a long time… but it was the first time I felt totally alone.
I launched this blog a year ago as a way to remind myself and the people I connect with that no matter how shitty things get… you can still laugh and make the most of it. Despite everything that was going on I was doing all I know how to do when things are shitty…
Make the most of it and push forward. Live, laugh and ninja kick life’s obstacles.
This inspired those around me. This was the driving force of my blog.
I also wanted to change my career in the direction of writing and social marketing. I wanted to mesh all my skills and passions while kicking ass and taking names.
It’s been over a year. I didn’t do a blogaversary because … well, I suck at anniversary related events! In the beginning I talked about where it began and funny stories about clogged poo toilets and me doing headstands in the living room and almost breaking my butt. Telling funny stories was safe… and fun…
I didn’t want this place on the interwebz to be just a humor blog. I wanted to share our lives. I wanted to write the way I used to before my life was derailed years ago. I wanted an outlet to talk about the things I do while hopefully inspiring others.
Life sucks. It gets hard. Really fucking hard. Then we have a choice… it can break us or it can motivate.
I choose motivation… even if I get bumps and bruises along the way.
I set a ton of goals for myself and at the time I thought they were way too ambitious. But, that’s how I roll. I’m happy to say that I was able to accomplish almost all of my goals.
Most of the goals that I focused on had to do with my flaws in myself. I knew I needed to change a lot of things about myself in order to be the happiest I can be.
Not to say I wasn’t happy. I just know I’m my own worst enemy and I tend to keep myself busy and joking to avoid dealing with crap.
I needed to learn to be more openly emotional. Just writing that a year ago was a dark time for me is a huge step forward for me. So much can be learned by being comfortably vulnerable which I learned when I opened up about my daughter almost killing herself by eating food she knew she was allergic to or when she broke my heart from stealing. I also realized the beauty in the communities we create through social media after I was attacked online and someone wished harm on my daughter.
I’ve taken amazing trips and lived out a geeky dream going to San Francisco for Ubisoft’s Digital Day. I’ve had fun times with bloggy friends at Knott’s Berry Farm, threw a groovy Disco Party and went to the OC Blogger Bash. I’ve shared silly moments about wookies on twitter and why certain camera angles make my thighs look huge.
I’ve made new friends. I’ve removed toxic people from my life. I’m also learning to let people in and be there in ways I’ve never been able to. I’m moving forward while kicking ass and taking names.
I’ve always loved my life and focused on appreciating what I have in the moment rather than what I don’t have. Life is always rad even if it can suck… but right now… ending 2011… I can say that my life is exactly where it should be. I’m thankful for everyone who comes here to read about my life. I adore all my twitter and facebook homies. I appreciate my friends who have watched this unfold as well as the support I’ve had from family.
I’m looking forward to 2012. I’m excited for this next chapter in my life. I’m also happy to share it with so many of you.
Thank you all for being a part of our world… see you next year.
Live, laugh and ninja kick my wookies. Much love to you all!
About Leila DontSpeakWhinese
Leila, aka The Ninja, is the advocate for all things not whining. Parenting is fun when everyone stops b*tching! She is a single Mom with two amazing kids. They ninja kick through life together. Oh and she is a total jackass.